October 28, 2009

Happy Little Trees and all of the Bees’ Knees

I’ve been inspired by Sizzle (who was inspired by her BlogHer besties) to share some happy (and also, like her, to make it all bullety and such by another Sizzle friend who clearly appreciates lovely formatting). Proper credit given, I share some of my happy because there are few bandwagons I don’t jump on:

Since July, I’ve lost about 4% body fat. No real change in weight (if anything I’m up a little), but I look better in my clothes and feel better. Strong, like I can beat a bitch’s ass and eat her babies. So basically I’ve turned what was once fat into muscle and that makes me blush with happy.

I’m not only passing my math class, I’m acing it. And *blushing furiously* my professor said I’m one of his best students and could go on and on with math if I wanted to. I almost shoved him like Elaine and shouted, “GET. THEFUCK. OUT.” because I was so shocked, but I just furrowed my brow. Clearly he must be mistaking me with another person. Because…me? Math? I assure you that skill was scant and any progress or knowledge is purely haphazard and largely accidental. (Because I am unclear how this may have happened, I am also in denial.)

I am chatting with my grandma somewhat regularly on e-mail. This makes me profoundly happy, that I am not only back in touch with family but that also I am actively communicating and loving them and being loved back. When things were bad with my mother I just assumed that my grandparents were on her “side” (because we’re always convinced that there are sides, aren’t we) and never talked to them or made an effort. That has changed and I love it so much I get a little teary.

I’m not in therapy anymore. This is sad because I actually really enjoyed my therapist’s company of a friendly level as well as professional, but it’s good because I’m doing it on my own. Finally. I’m finally maintaining. I feel as if I’m riding a bike for the first time without training wheels.

I’ve managed to raise my credit score 127 points since May 2008. DON’T FUCK WITH ME, BANKS. I’m onto your asses. I won’t be in the market for a new car for another two years, but I’m really looking forward to having my Pretty Woman Moment in the GM dealership where the guy looked at my score and laughed at me. Go beat it and weep, arsehole. The positive thing is that I felt so horrible about myself that I motivated and worked my ass off. I love this feeling.

I’m making things right with some people from my past. I don’t want to go much beyond that and the fact that I literally hug myself sometimes thinking that things are okay and that, even if I didn’t do things right the first time, I didn’t forget or ignore and eventually did what I could to change things.

Boyfriend and I are seeing my boyfriend David Sedaris Monday night! He is my idol and I love him and want to cuddle him and put him in my pocket for I love him so.

Tegan and Sara’s new release effing rocks and I’ve been listening all day and yesterday. So badass. That’s what it should be called, the CD: “So Badass.”

Enough of my tedium. Now it’s your turn. Care to share?

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10 Responses to “Happy Little Trees and all of the Bees’ Knees”

On October 28th, 2009 at 9:15 pm sizzle Says:

These are such great things! I will welcome the day I graduate out of therapy. And fixing your finances? We’ve emailed about this but it’s such a good feeling. Hallelujah.

Now to go buy the new T & S. They are my girlfriends. Seth Rogen doesn’t mind. . . since he doesn’t know he’s my boyfriend.
sizzle´s last blog ..A Smattering
On October 28th, 2009 at 10:01 pm Alison Says:

Those are good things!

Me? I’m just happy that my 14-year-old daughter will get to experience her first American Halloween in a few days. And the marching band I’m in is performing in the Thriller parade (this is the 8th year that a local dance studio has produced Thriller in downtown Lexington; this year there’s a parade, too) and my girl will be participating in that as well. The next day she’ll go trick-or-treating, and my band is performing that night again, and it’s just all going to be teh awesome.
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On October 28th, 2009 at 10:12 pm Kerri Anne
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Says:

I already shared (yay! for passing The Happy along), so I’ll just say: hip hip! These sorts of lists are my favorite of all lists. Also: I’m very much looking forward to your impending visit to visit Sizzle & I (and the great city of Seattle) one of these days. I’m preemptively psyched, is my overall point.
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On October 28th, 2009 at 10:49 pm Angella Says:

This post made me happy. Happy for you, happy for me for getting to be happy for you.

Yes, I’m full of cheese. Enjoy it while it lasts because winter is coming and it brings out The Grumpy.

But forget that! Soak in the HAPPY.
Angella´s last blog ..Happy Is As Happy Does
On October 28th, 2009 at 11:13 pm willikat Says:

Wow, those are all like SUPERAWESOME happies. An embarrassment of happies! I am happies for you!

This actually made ME happy, that’s how happy it is.

I will try to follow up with a list of this sort soon, but I have to slog through this week first.
On October 28th, 2009 at 11:39 pm Jess Says:

This post makes me so happy! So many great things going on with you. And what makes them extra-fabulous is that you are making them happen yourself, you know? This isn’t just coincidence. YOU are doing great things.
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On October 29th, 2009 at 7:50 pm Felicia Says:

1. I feel better that you said you have a “friendly level” with your therapist. I also stopped going, mainly for financial reasons, but I was worried that all the friendly chit-chat we did in my sessions was abnormal.

2. I’m so freaking jealous you’re seeing David Sedaris!! I missed him when he came through here.
Felicia´s last blog .."Put on your red shoes and dance the blues"
On October 30th, 2009 at 10:43 am Chris Says:

These are all great! You deserve the intense blushing moments. Enjoy! I hope you find your balance riding that bike without training wheels. Call smart friends when you start to tip. They’ve helped me and saved me mucho money. Go, Muscular Math Girl!
Chris´s last blog ..Finding My People Is Like Learning to Drive A Stick Shift
On October 30th, 2009 at 3:18 pm Em Says:

Wow, good news!! Haven’t heard anything this uplifting in awhile. Good for you, gaining strength in so many areas of your life!!

I finally threw in the towel & got medicated this week, so I am very optimistic that productivity and progress will start shining from my corner of the world also.

Also, isn’t it fabulous to be reunited with family? I was estranged from mine for about a decade … since re-uniting last year things are now AMAZING! I know how you’re feeling … hugs!
Em´s last blog ..2 Weeks Late
On October 30th, 2009 at 6:02 pm nicoleantoinette Says:

I need to write a list like this. Actually, I need to DO most of the things on this list first.

You inspire me.
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